Sunday, June 01, 2008

Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Dance Workshop








flag twirling! the skin in between my fingers hurt for days after that. but it was really fun and satisfying! :)




EVA! :)


during drama. i was the house! :)


the merlion and piece of meat.


I LOVE THE DOUGHNUTS SHAUNA'S FOREVER BUYING FOR US! :)

drawn like the rivers are drawn to the sea
there's no turning back, for the water cannot help but flow
once we hear the Saviour's call, we'll follow wherever He leads
because of the love He has shown
and because He has called us to go
we will answer....

we will abandon it all for the sake of the call
no other reason at all for the sake of the call
wholly devoted to live and to die

not for the sake of a creed or a cause
not for a dream or a promise
simply because it is Jesus who called
and if we believe we'll obey

For The Sake Of the Call by Steven Curtis Chapman

even though it's only this part of the song that we were dancing to, it took four gruelling of jazz ballet to properly learn the steps. even then, the tempo was difficult to catch, and the moves stretched my body in a way that i never had imagined, even in my dreams. the warm-up session was the toughest one i've EVER been to in my life. she made us go down in positions that we never thought could ever be accomplished. but we did it. this song felt so liberating and surrendering that it refreshed my mind, body and soul. i just danced my heart out for God, and i felt so lifted. :) that saturday, i experienced what it meant to truely abandon it all. hahaha. too bad i kinda forgot the steps already. but it felt so good dancing again. i don't think it's just the dance. but the fact that i could be up there dancing those moves. moves that look awkward and weird on me, but felt so right. :)

as sure as gold is precious and the honey sweet,
so you love this city and you love these streets.
every child out playing by their own front door
every baby laying on the bedroom floor.

every dreamer dreaming in her dead-end job
every driver diving through the rush hour mob
i feel it in my spirit, feel it in my bones
you're going to send revival, bring them all back home

i can hear that thunder in the distance
like a train on the edge of town
i can feel the brooding of Your Spirit
"lay your burdens down, lay your burdens down."

Revival by Unknown (HAHA!)

the warm-ups itself was already extremely painful, cause everyone was sore from jazz ballet the day before. the worst about this was body restriction, and i can't do it! i was soooo discouraged. on top of that, i brought the wrong shoes. i brought ballet shoes instead of sneakers; which is completely wrong for hip-hop. the moves were so different than the normal ones that we usually do with shauna or nigel that i really felt SO distressed. i actually cried at the end, cause i really couldn't cope. the whole thing was just too fast, and i feel like i'm the only one not being able to catch the steps. then suddenly this cloud of insecurity came over me, and i felt really bad. like what my mum's constantly reminding me that i never had any dance background, apart from one year of ballet when i was four. that's why i'm a bad dancer. it just. made me feel so sad. you know when you can't dance? you just can't. no amount of practice will make you good. that's how i felt lar. but i didn't wanna cry in front of all the dancers, so i blinked my tears away and tried to stop them from falling. i left church feeling very unmotivated. then i was reminded that when you start dancing for God, a lot more obsticles will come your way, cause when we worship God, satan is not happy. which is why he will do anything in his power to stop us dancing for God. like missing church service, or even feeling so depressed and demoralized, like how i was feeling.

thank God for mummy. who's really like a really good friend that i can trust my life to. talking to her in the car made me feel a whole lot better.

CLASSIC JOKES
everyone held hands and concentrated. everyone's supposed to say the alaphabets in alaphabetical order from A-Z. if more than one person says a certain letter at the same time, we'll have to start all over again.
"A!"
"B!"
silence.
"C!"
"D."
"E!!"
silenceeee.
"F."
"G-"
"H."
silenceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
cass (a university student), "L."
silence. EVERYONE bursts out laughing.

ahh, good times, good times. :)




cass demanded that i posted this up. it was on my blog the way it is; which is that way. it's not really encouraging, but it's my reflections! :) i hope somehow those who felt discouraged know that you aren't alone. that there's people with you.

when i went home and thought about the entire dance worship, i remembered how shantelle talked about facing our giants, and how satan will always make things difficult for us. somehow, let's just remember that what's inside us - God - is bigger than anything else okay! :)

let me end with this verse that i hope encourages us:
"We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken. We are perplexed, but we don't give up and quit. We are hunted down, but God never abandons us. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going."
- 2 Corinthians 4:8-9

how i found this verse was really quite amazing. i actually came upon it during sermon in cca one day (i'm in Campus Crusade for Christ). after that, i went home and flipped through my school diary. my school diary (fairfield school diary. i bought one for personal use this year. =D) has a bible verse on the top left hand corner for every start of the week to serve as an excouragement. and i came across the exact same verse! hahaa.

okay, i feel that i have spoken a whole lot of crap. haha.

love,
annette!:)